Still on this Journey

         Okay, so I am not sure where to start... well pick back up.  I have  been consistently working on music for a while now and for the absolute first time ever, the process feels good.  I have always had some type of issue working with producers in the past and I have felt extremely skeptical of every move but, I still take it step by step and trust the process.  I was speaking with an amazing woman (Havilah Malone) on the phone who lifted me up and so many way, and during our talk, she mentioned "The Journey." I jumped remembering this blog because I thought I had deleted it during one of my many down moments on this journey of trying to overcome my fear of being great. I needed to hear what she had to say. 
       I read back at my old posts and could do nothing but laugh thinking how many times I stopped and for how long. That is truly my drug that I have been trying to kick for years.  Consistency and believing in me enough to not keep giving up on myself has been a struggle of mine and my have I back slided.  It is frustrating but I keep positive influences around me and I have grown such an amazing support system.

I am a writer!

I find myself writing a lot lately. It's not a normal amount, even for a grad student. The more I write, the more I get accomplished, the better I feel, and the less I stress. When I was 13, a strange woman walked up to me after church and asked me if I like to write, of course I told her no. Now if she would have asked me if I like to sing, I would have said yes! She said to me, "you wil learn to love it, and when you do, don't stop writing." I didn't care to understand, then , again I was 13, and all I wanted to do was return home to my mother, siblings, and entire family. (Long story).  I am experiencing having my future in my own hands and knowing what to do with it. I am still scared at times, but that's why I push on. 

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AD!! Thats me! Arianne Dabney! I could not be more proud of myself! I have been working super hard making my dreams come true. As hard as I work , my team works just as hard. #teamariannedabney #TAD 

There are only 24 hours in a day and I am up early at it and I stay up late making a daily goal to reach my weekly goals that turns out to help me obtain my monthly goals. "I don't know how long I'm gonna be here, but I know how long it took to get here." A quote from one of my songs. If I am HERE , just imagine how far I'll be in a minute. OMG I cannot wait to show everyone what I've been up to. 

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24 HOURS WITHOUT A SOUND!

As I write from my bed covered in blankets, I am extremely humbled and afraid out of my mind at the same time.  If you've read my post from a few days ago, I mention someone asking me what I would do if I could not sing. Well I woke up to my biggest fear.  NO VOICE. I don't mean just a sore throat, or a horse throat.  NO VOICE! I assumed it would only be temporary, but my appreciation for my gift just got a little bit stronger. I went to a saints watch party where Rude Jude hosts and that is something you don't want to miss.  It was not a good idea for me to go.  When I watch the saints play, there is always screaming going on along with 2nd hand smoke. UGH! I guess I was not as disciplined as I thought.  Bad idea.

I called off from work to nurse myself back to health.  I vowed to not speak a sound today.  Yes all day. A whole 24 hours.  I am drinking tea after tea today with medication and prayer. I WILL over come this and get back to work.  I actually am getting a lot accomplished and there is nothing that will stop this journey from continuing.

I am very thankful for every person that reads my blog and I hope that this can be a lesson to you.  Whatever it is that God has blessed you with.  I mean WHATEVER it is,  please cherish it.  I know I will.

I'M DOING BETTER!!!!

Someone I love very much asked me yesterday what I would do if I could not sing....... I felt that sensation in my chest as if I were going to cry. That kind of feeling when your feelings get hurt. I couldn't create that feeling if I were being paid a million dollars to. It took me a while to respond because I was too focused on my insides not exploding. I know how it is to be without and I vowed to never return to that place again. I believe in me enough to not give up on me..... Ever again. I am one of the most deserving people I know. My faith in god has been shaky before but when you know better, you do better. I KNOW BETTER. 

Happy New year

This is a new year, and like many, I too have a New Years Resolution. I have so many goals and so much to accomplish but I will take this journey one day at a time. I graduate next year and I will obtain my masters degree in clinical mental health counseling. I am so undeserving of God's grace and his mercy and not to forget his favor, and yet I receive my daily dose of it. I am working really hard in making my dreams a reality. Music on my brain. 2014!!!! #teamariannedabney

Beyonce's Drunk In Love by: @ArianneDabney